Embrace what you have......
For a very long time I tried to ignore my gifts. I refused to embrace anything that had to do with my visions spirits and otherwise. I did not want these so called gifts and I figured if I just ignored any and everything that they would just stop, become weaker and all the noise and talking would just GO AWAY!
Oh I couldn't have been more wrong! As you become older these gifts get stronger, they get bigger and become more apparent. There is no ignoring, that's impossible and even if you find a way to do this like I did, the spirits all know you have this gift. So you can ignore it all you want but that doesn't stop the noise. It won't stop the spirits from popping in at the most inappropriate time like when youre trying to sleep, or how about giving a speech for you finals, or at work sitting next to customers, or going to the bathroom or even taking a shower or how about when you're having sex. Picture having this amazing moment with your partner and you glance up and there is a spirit standing in the corner watching like its no big deal or sitting in the chair watching. Yes this has happened to me, all of it and more. Please understand they have nothing but time and determination to be heard. The more you fight it off the more it becomes bothersome. I promise you that it's not worth the fight you will lose or lose your mind in the process. Just embrace the gifts and always set boundaries. This is the only way you can live comfortably.
This brings me to my next topic.....
Allowing people in to your world
Ok so I will confess here, I am not the easiest person to get along with and i know this. I sometimes have a shity attitude and to be 100% honest and transparent I don't like people. I would much rather spend my time alone with my animals. This sounds bad but I've had a extremely rough life. Starting at a very young age. Growing up in Detroit wasn't easy but it shaped me as a person. I am loyal so much so it's a flaw instead of a positive attribute. Loyalty means everything as does trust. Throughout this blog I'll expose some of the reasons I am the way I am. For now we'll touch on the subject of letting people into your world.
*NOTE*
●I'm going to only address my husband with his street name or Initials as I will do other loved ones for privacy reasons. Most others that have been in then Out of my life don't need to be noted! However I will talk about situations that may have happened with others but I'll always use "Y" for men and "X" for women as the name.●
My husband was a skeptic and still clams to be such. We were together about 4 to 5 yrs before I truly started revealing the gifts I have. The funny thing is he ALSO has abilities that he won't embrace. After many years of challenging him and challenging his beliefs or non beliefs I should say. I've heard from his circle he talks very highly of the gifts I have! Imagine the shock and surprise when his friends told me such. It truly made my day.....no wait made my week to hear that he thought this way!
As I said above it took a long time for me to truly reveal what and who I am to him. I would ask him certain things to see how felt or I would say things to get his reaction but never fully showed him until a few years ago. To be completely honest he still hasn't seen all of me and i dont know that im able to share myself fully with anyone like that. This comes from a lifetime of misunderstandings, disbelief, disloyalty among other words I could use to describe my life. It's become a way to protect myself. Unfortunately human nature isn't so kind like we're made out to be.
So a word of advice and this is me being 100% transparent and honest. Be very careful who you reveal yourself to! People tend to be very selfish and really CANT understand you because they don't deal with everyday situations like a person with these abilities does. If you have a good friend that knows what you are and what you can do and they haven't hurt you or used you in any type of way
CHERISH THEM DEARLY!
I didn't have anyone to lean on or talk to so my journey has been a challenging battle and after years and years of people stabbing you in the back, you become jaded. I only hope you never have to endure the type of hurt and pain I have. I wouldn't wish it on all the people who've caused me hurt combined! They say we people with abilities are more sensitive and thats why we are called "sensitives" but I don't think that's the case. I believe and it's only an opinion, that we are used more frequently then someone without these gifts. We are frequently paraded around as "freakshows" and used for people's own personal gain, this is done by parents family loved ones people we thought we could trust with our lives tend to be the biggest letdown of our life. So is it that we are more sensitive? Could it be that our world is so unjust and anything not in the spectrum of nornal is a gain, that most people are truly selfish by nature and they will do anything to be the it factor for a week?....
I'll leave you to decide and comment
I'm sure you know where my opinion lies.
I'll end this here with this quote......
We are all human (supposedly) we all bleed the same, we all make mistakes
"WE ARE ALL HURTING AND HEALING IN SILENCE"
Please consider this the next time you do something to hurt someone intentionally or not.
MOST OF US CAN FIX IT, OR AT LEAST FIX HOW BADLY THEY FEEL AND ITS DONE WITH ONLY 8 LETTERS AND MINIMAL EFFORT.......
I AM SORRY
THIS SENTENCE GOES FURTHER THAN YOU THINK if it didn't do you think that...
SPIRITS WOULD BE COMING BACK TO SAY SUCH WORDS?
(As always im Looking forward to input or questions)
xoxo💋